Please DO Lead Me From Temptation ~

What a long depressing week ...

No need to go into it all here. But I did finally visit a Smoke Shoppe.

I went to the post office to overnight a very important letter. That was the only time in two days I had left the house. After leaving the post office I went straight to a 'New-American' run C-store and Smoke Shop.

When I entered the woman in line just ahead of me was bumped and pushed by three inconsiderate teenagers leaving the crowded little store. She turned my direction to show her displeasure with the youth.

I nodded in agreement and then just asked her if she had just one cigarette I could have. NO, that was why she was there. She wanted to know why I wanted just one and if I had already quit. Yes, I said I was well into my 500 days but had a really bad week.

She told me I should turn around and leave. She said she'd give anything to be in my shoes. (I doubt that, especially not this week). I know I almost had tears in my eyes. I just reiterated: I had a really bad week. But she was right, I should leave, the desire will leave me eventually.

I left -- Drove to the next c-store and craving wasn't gone. I pulled in. I pulled back out and went on back home. The craving and desire did finally leave me.

And I'm now (and Still) 537 Days Smoke Free!

~ MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY ~