Painting The Town ~

I wonder if my last blog post was misunderstood ... I was not so much tempted to cheat as surprised that I continue to dream about cheating ... and these dreams are so real!

This weekend however, was a bit different ... I spent most of my weekend painting my living room ... (Benjamin Moore Dry Sage btw: Looks Fab ...)

Anyway ~ I was taken by surprise how often during this process I would not necessarily 'crave' a cigarette, but I did think about having a cigarette break quite a bit.

After smoking a pack and half to two packs a day for most of three decades and only being smoke free for 220 days thus far, apparently the thoughts are not going to go away too easily ... Even if the cravings aren't as strong as they used to be, the associations are.

I'm sure many of you know what I'm talking about ... "When I finish this wall I will have a cigarette" ... or; "I'd like to hurry and get this part done so I can take a smoke break."

I couldn't help but to notice that I was thinking about going out and having a cigarette a lot this weekend ... even if it was cold and snowy most of the time.

Happily, I can report, I thought about it but I did not do it!